OK, I Just Have To Write About It! “Mental Illness & Guns”

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Now many of you know I suffer from a few mental health issues and disorders, so when I seen this story on the web, I thought to myself,…..hhhhmmm, “Is this going to be another story of undiagnosed¬†mental illness of a mother going ROGUE and killing her children? Even though this is my writers blog, I also write about mental illness and childhood abuse here too, because¬†writing is writing no matter what the topic. So here is what I read on the web this morning..

MOTHER Held on suspicion of killing of 3 daughters…( Courtesy Of The AP )
Los Angeles County sheriff's deputies block off the scene of a triple homicide that occurred in the unincorporated area of Los Angeles, Calif., on Tuesday, May 20, 2014.: Los Angeles County sheriff's deputies block off the scene of a triple homicide that occurred in the unincorporated area of Los Angeles, Calif., on Tuesday, May 20, 2014.
AP Photo: Steve McCrank, The Daily Breeze Los Angeles County sheriff’s deputies block off the scene of a triple homicide that occurred in the unincorporated area of Los Angeles, Calif., on Tuesday, May 20, 2014.

TORRANCE, Calif. (AP) ‚ÄĒ A mother was arrested Tuesday on suspicion of killing her three young daughters, the youngest only 2 months old, authorities said.

Los Angeles County sheriff’s deputies were called to an unincorporated area near this Los Angeles suburb shortly after 5 p.m., a Sheriff’s Department statement said.

“When they arrived, they were met by family members who told the deputies that a mother had killed her children,” the statement said.

Deputies found three girls, a 3-year-old, 2-year-old and 2-month-old. They were pronounced dead at the scene.

“The deputies were directed to the house by the grandmother,” sheriff’s homicide Lt. Dave Coleman told the Daily Breeze of Torrance (http://bit.ly/1lNJP1U). “We did find the babies inside the residence.”

Carol Coronado, 30, was arrested on suspicion of murder, taken to a hospital for examination and then to a sheriff’s station for booking. Authorities say she made no statement.

Neighbor Ashley Madrid told the Daily Breeze that the children’s father was working on his car across the street when his mother-in-law discovered her daughter and the three children in a pool of blood on a bed.

“I saw when they were bringing him out,” Madrid said. “He was crying. He was crying, ‘She killed my daughters!'”

Madrid said she was told the mother had a kitchen knife in her hand and was trying to cut her wrists.

Sheriff’s deputies took the mother, who was naked except for a blanket, to a patrol car and she was then placed in an ambulance, Madrid said.

“She was full of blood on her face and arms,” Madrid said.

Madrid said the children’s grandmother told her that, ”¬†the woman had called earlier in the day and said that she was going crazy.”

So I ask the question again? Will this be another mental illness killing?


See,¬†those who struggle with mental illness like myself, ¬†this is a topic that needs to be talked about, written about, and blogged about in order to ‘Raise Awareness’ of how broken our mental health services & systems¬†are in this country! I advocate, and I speak out, and write¬†about this. I blogged a while back here on my blog about the difference of mental health services I’m receiving here in Arizona, compared to the services I was getting back in So. Oregon where I relocated from due to my husband’s job 8 months ago. In Oregon, my primary care doctor handled all my mental health services, screenings, and my meds. But here in Arizona, the law requires, due to health insurance requirements, that mental health services need to be handled not by the primary doctor, but through a Mental Health & Behavioral Center with a psychiatrist and therapy councilor. They monitor¬†my meds, progress, and help with life skills,¬†and they send all info to my new primary doctor here. They handle all my evaluations, blood work, and more.

So I wonder why other states can’t do the same? Arizona should be a model of ‘How Right They Have Mental Health Services” in this country. And to take it one step farther, I feel the government could use the ‘DATABASE’ of the states mental health systems, if they were modeled after Arizona’s, to then use it for a form of screening of NO GUNS or weapons allowed to be sold to those under current care by a doctor with mental or emotional illness &¬†disorders. It may just cut down all the tragic loss of life by suicides, and less loss of¬†innocent by standers getting killed in the process by people who are mentally ill. Yes, I’m very aware of “The¬†People’s Rights to Bare Arms” as the constitution ~¬†5th amendment¬†gives them that right, but I feel it should not give that right to a person who is mentally ill. And I do believe these past few years of tragic loss of life by GUNS¬†PROVES this POINT.



I mean come on now,….lets BE REAL about this issue and problem! For those who want to stick to ‘The Right To Bare Arms NO MATTER WHAT,’ ¬†let me ask you this? If your loved one was mentally ill, would you go purchase a gun and let them have it in good conscience? Would you? How about if your child or spouse¬†was in the wrong place at the wrong time, and a person shot them in a mentally ill or suicidal rage and taken from you? I think you’d seen the other side of the coin, that’s what I think. What about¬†all the families and ones who have already¬†died because of this scenario,¬†from these tragic shootings of late? Would you still let a mentally ill person buy a gun? I think I made my point. Look, I’m not down on people protecting their property and families with having guns for¬†protection, that’s a No Brainer!

What I do advocate for, is those who have mental health illness & issues should NOT.
It’s just that SIMPLE…..

I guess only time will tell when we¬†here about the facts behind what made this¬†woman want to kill 3 innocent children. In the meantime? I will continue to write, blog, share, advocate, raise awareness, and help Shatter The STIGMA¬†of¬†Mental & Emotional illness¬†& STILL¬†NO¬†GUNS PERIOD….

God Bless All,
Author, Catherine Townsend-Lyon


“Holy Great Expectations”! ~ A Daily Prompt Post

Hello Writer Friends, And Welcome New Readers,


Great Expectations

Tell us about one thing (or more) that you promised yourself you’d accomplish by the end of the year. How would you feel once you do? What if you don’t?


Has there ever been a time in your life that you had big plans,¬†or maybe some Great Expectations¬†¬†of goals to accomplish today, tomorrow, or even this year? Well when you live with Bipolar Depression, PTSD, and Agoraphobia with Panic disorder, it’s even harder to accomplish those life goals,….BUT ONLY IF YOU LET!
I refuse to be a victim, nor do I let my mental disabilities hamper me from reaching for the stars!¬†And accomplish my¬†“Dreams & Goals.”

I remember how I felt when my current book got picked up by¬†a publisher, and my expectations for the book being¬†put out into the¬†world as the next NY Times best seller! Man did that expectation pop in an instant. LOL.¬†But, it did get published So I was¬†excited when I got the first copy of my¬†paperback book in my grubby little hands, that I did a Happy Dance¬†of a bunny hopping around after drinking a Red Bull!! There are¬†no words to describe the feelings of accomplishment. So one bucket list goal off my life¬†list, and now two more to go! But this time around,¬†writing seems to be taken me a wee bit longer to get these two books written and finished. The honeymoon period of my first book is over, and now the hard work has been almost done with the next two, but I’m having a hard time getting my endings down and done so¬†to hopefully get them out by this late fall. Another Great Expectation.

Many know I also live life in recovery from addicted gambling & alcohol consumption for over 7 years now, and you have no idea how many great expectations we have in recovery, especially in early recovery when we get some clean time and then have a lapse, or relapse.
It’s like disappointment after disappointment. Expectations take on a whole new¬†meaning. Not until we¬†do the work on the inside of ourselves can we begin to recover. Our loved ones also seem to put many expectations on us when we are in recovery. That can be hard on us who are trying to stay recovered. But my point in this is that when we live “In The Moment,” and “One Day At A Time,” in recovery and in life, not only can we meet all our expectations, but we are actually¬†LIVING OUR¬†LIFE! Stress, worries, thinking about yesterday or tomorrow will not let our expectations happen, as we are not focused on today, in this very¬†moment in time, to¬†be in the now!

Learning this in recovery and in treatment & therapy has enabled me to accomplish most all of my great expectations so far. Again, when my first book came out, it truly was a work of a power greater than myself. All I did was let the powers at be guide me when the words of my book came pouring out of my heart and soul into white paper with lines. Yes, I wrote all my words to my book by hand in 5 notebooks of paper, and 2 pencils. Once I started writing I could not stop until all the terrible, ugly, darkness I went through with my addiction was all out of my soul. Until I felt I could actually see on paper with my own two eyes. Then?…..That was that.|

That part of my life was over. Made my amends to myself. That was Jan. 2011, and¬†on Nov 26, 2012 on my 50th birthday I had my very first published book in my hands. I felt like one blessed girl. I can’t tell you how many blessings given,¬†and how many¬†doors have opened since then.

One of the biggest, hugest, greatest expectations of my life had just transpired.¬†What’s the moral of my story? Never give up on those Great Expectations of life. Always shoot for the stars! No matter how long it may take you¬†to achieve what you want in life, always know we all have it inside us to do what ever we want. May God Bless You with all your Great Expectations in Life!
Author, Catherine Townsend-Lyon

Depression Can = Suicide So The Time Is Now To Talk About It.

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*WARNING* ~ Content may not be suitable for young kids.

No, I’m not trying to SHOCK anyone, but another suicide has happened in Hollywood. A well-known director has committed suicide,¬†and it happens to be¬†due to mental illness of severe depression. When will this stop? When will this loss of precious life end? How can we reach out to these people who suffer from depression and help save their¬†lives? Many of us who have mental illness and disorders like myself, understand how depression can get so dark, that many consider the option of ending ones life. We feel so hopeless, so down and full of fear and doubt, even when good things are happening in our life, sometimes it¬†isn’t enough to push away the darkness we seem to not be able to get out of…

WENN / Malik Bendjelloul
Report: Director Bendjelloul committed suicide
By MALIN RISING , Associated Press
Story Courtesy Of AP…
STOCKHOLM (AP) — Malik Bendjelloul, director of the acclaimed “Searching for Sugar Man” documentary, was widely known for his enthusiasm, kindness and high spirits — so the news Wednesday that he had taken his own life shocked colleagues around the world..
Malik Bendjelloul
Bendjelloul’s brother Johar Bendjelloul told Swedish daily Aftonbladet that his 36-year-old younger brother committed suicide Tuesday after struggling with depression for a short period.
“Life is not always simple,” Johar Bendjelloul was quoted as saying, adding that receiving the message that his brother had committed suicide was the worst thing he had ever experienced.

“I don’t know how to handle it. I don’t know,” he said.

“It seems so unbelievable,” Chinn told The Associated Press over the telephone. “I saw him two weeks ago in London. He was so full of life, hope and optimism and happiness, and looking forward to the future and future collaborations. We were talking about working together and talking about specific ideas, so the idea that he is no longer is just too hard to process.”

The soft-spoken Bendjelloul worked as a reporter for Sweden’s public broadcaster SVT before resigning to backpack around the world. He got the idea for “Searching for Sugar Man” during one of his trips, but it would take him more than four years to complete the film.

SVT’s culture chief Eva Beckman said his death was incomprehensible.

“One always says it is unbelievable when a young person dies, or when anybody dies, but it is even more unbelievable with Malik,” she said Wednesday. “Malik was simply such an incredibly alive person.”

Beckman also praised Bendjelloul’s strong storytelling skills and his willingness to experiment with new formats.

“What really set him apart from everybody else was his passion for storytelling. He was a fantastic storyteller,” she said.

This really is a sad story. What I just don’t understand many times when these tragedies happen, how can the people closest around you not see any WARNING SIGNS? That truly is the most baffling to those left behind. Many who have never been touched by mental and emotional illness and disorders just don’t seem to understand how others can take their own lives. Depression alone is hard, and can take you to such dark places that we feel the only way to get out of this dark fog, grasp at the clarity of life that we feel it’s our only way to “Sanity & Freedom” from blackness. I know, as many of you know I attempted suicide twice, but I was the lucky one. The guy upstairs told me I had too much to do to help others from this same fate.
Just being able to talk about it, and looking back, I didn’t realize how painful it is to our loved one’s and friends around us, as they¬†are the ones to have to pick up the pieces and try to make sense of it all after the person is gone. Later, as I got properly diagnosed, and reading my journals back in those dark days that seemed to never end,¬†that’s when I realized how selfish I had been. We don’t mean to be this way, it’s the illness that gets to us. Even when I was starting recovery from my addictions, it didn’t seem as severe as my depression and agoraphobia.
So once I started on medications to help, I started feeling more even with my moods and my thoughts. ¬†I still struggle on some days, but that is the nature of this beast. It comes in waves, like a cycle. Learning to journal how you feel each day, then look back at them each month, really helps me to see when I do seem to get or be in a cycle. We can than use “Life Skills” we learn to work through them. But for some, even that is too hard to do when you’re in full-blown severe¬†depression.


This picture above is an excellent warning sign. WHY? ¬†If a loved one goes out and gets Life Insurance for no reason, or spur of the moment? Start asking questions. I say this because of being in recovery, many who have addiction problems and are in recovery actually DO THIS. I remember listening to one man in my “Gamblers Anonymous” meeting speak about his past “Suicide Plan.” ¬†It really touched me. He had gambled a long time addictively. ¬†He said he had went and bought a life insurance policy for a large amount. He was into gambling games like Dice, Poker, and Roulette. He said, “once he lost the SAME AMOUNT as the insurance policy he purchased, he then planned to commit suicide, so his wife wouldn’t be broke because of his addicted gambling addiction.” The insurance money would cover all his gambling loss’s so his wife wouldn’t HATE him when he was dead. I just sat there listening to his story and couldn’t believe what I was hearing.
That was a pre-planned SUICIDE I was listening to! I was taken aback and¬†shocked to say the least, that someone would actually think something like that through. I got goose bumps just hearing him speak each word. Now I understand many who may read this,¬†may¬†still not understand why with¬†just depression, that a person would want to take their own life. Let me share a little research I found about just how bad depression can get for some of us…



Definition of depression (n)

Bing Dictionary
  • de¬∑pres¬∑sion
  • [ di pr√©sh’n ]
  1. sadness: a state of unhappiness and hopelessness
  2. psychiatric disorder: a psychiatric disorder showing symptoms such as persistent feelings of hopelessness, dejection, poor concentration, lack of energy, inability to sleep, and, sometimes, suicidal tendencies..
  3. Common symptoms of bipolar depression include:

    • Feeling hopeless, sad, or empty.
    • Irritability
    • Inability to experience pleasure
    • Fatigue or loss of energy
    • Physical and mental sluggishness
    • Appetite or weight changes
    • Sleep problems
    • Concentration and memory problems
    • Feelings of worthlessness or guilt
    • Thoughts of death or suicide



    Signs And Symptom Of Severe Depression:

    In the past, bipolar depression was lumped in with regular depression, but a growing body of research suggests that there are significant differences between the two, especially when it comes to recommended treatments. Most people with bipolar depression are not helped by antidepressants. In fact, there is a risk that antidepressants can make bipolar disorder worse‚ÄĒtriggering mania or hypomania, causing rapid cycling between mood states, or interfering with other mood stabilizing drugs.
    Despite many similarities, certain symptoms are more common in bipolar depression than in regular depression. For example, bipolar depression is more likely to involve irritability, guilt, unpredictable mood swings, and feelings of restlessness. People with bipolar depression also tend to move and speak slowly, sleep a lot, and gain weight. In addition, they are more likely to develop psychotic depression‚ÄĒa condition in which they‚Äôve lost contact with reality‚ÄĒand to experience major disability in work and social functioning.

    Treatment Options For Depression:
    If you spot the symptoms of bipolar depression in yourself or someone else, don’t wait to get help. Ignoring the problem won’t make it go away; in fact, it will almost certainly get worse. Living with untreated bipolar disorder can lead to problems in everything from your career to your relationships to your health. Diagnosing the problem as early as possible and getting into treatment can help prevent these complications.

    If you’re reluctant to seek treatment because you like the way you feel when you’re manic, remember that the energy and euphoria come with a price. Mania and hypomania often turn destructive, hurting you and the people around you.

    Bipolar disorder requires long-term treatment. Since bipolar disorder is a chronic, relapsing illness, it’s important to continue treatment even when you’re feeling better. Most people with bipolar disorder need medication to prevent new episodes and stay symptom-free

  4. There is more to treatment than medication. Medication alone is usually not enough to fully control the symptoms of bipolar disorder. The most effective treatment strategy for bipolar disorder involves a combination of medication, therapy, lifestyle changes, and social support.
  5. It‚Äôs best to work with an experienced psychiatrist. Bipolar disorder is a complex condition. Diagnosis can be tricky and treatment is often difficult. For safety reasons, medication should be closely monitored. A psychiatrist who is skilled in bipolar disorder treatment can help you navigate these twists and turns…
    *Bipolar Disorder and Suicide*
  6. The depressive phase of bipolar disorder is often very severe, and suicide is a major risk factor. In fact, people suffering from bipolar disorder are more likely to attempt suicide than those suffering from regular depression. Furthermore, their suicide attempts tend to be more lethal.
  7. The risk of suicide is even higher in people with bipolar disorder who have frequent depressive episodes, mixed episodes, a history of alcohol or drug abuse, a family history of suicide, or an early onset of the disease..


So I hope I’ve been able to help educate, inform, and shed a little light about depression disorder, and to know there is NO SHAME in asking for help from this destructive mental illness and disorder. There is now so much more information and helpful resources¬†about severe depression that we should be able to help those who feel they have no options¬†of¬†living with severe¬†depression. Here are just a few websites where you can get informed about depression, and how you can help. Half the battle I feel is being informed about it, and to get timely diagnosed and treated…


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Phone Number

My Thoughts and Prayers to The Bendjelloul Family & Friends
God Bless All,
Author, Catherine Townsend-Lyon